I, Am Limitless.
My pole journey began in November of 2016. Just two months after getting married and a few days after celebrating my 26th birthday. In fact, my first pole class was my gift to myself. These days were abundant with laughter, peace, love, joy. I’d arrived at a place that in my heart, I deeply desired and knew I was worthy of, but in my mind, worried I would never see.
The truth is, when I moved back to California in 2014, 23 years old and broken hearted, I wasn’t sure my Spirit could ever be whole again. Not only was I coming off the heels of a painful breakup, but I’d suffered an even more devastating loss. Something I never envisioned myself experiencing. I felt alone, I was devastated, and I fully blamed myself. I could not even begin to imagine that only two years later I would be married to an amazing man, living out my dreams, and most importantly, holding peace in my heart.
I didn’t think of it this way at the time, but deciding to take up pole was one of my first acts of freedom as a whole woman. It is no coincidence that the beginning of my pole journey collided with me finally living out a version of myself that was free. Free from condemnation, guilt, hurt, judgement, DRAMA, worry, insecurity and fear. I did what I thought I couldn’t, believed I had no right to, and released all of that from my heart. My healing was about surrender. And I did ALOT of work to surrender my own beliefs about myself and what I thought I deserved, to God, who had so much better to say about me. I had to surrender all of the negative thoughts, emotions, and experiences. Acknowledge that they happened. Acknowledge how I felt about them happening. And then let them go. Only then was I was able to move forward and allow all the good I deserved to come to me.
One of the most daring things about pole is that it is a journey of freedom. Every woman who touches a pole is daring to be free. Pole stands as a reminder of my own journey to freedom and symbolizes a version of myself that finally arrived. It reminds me of all the hard, emotional work I did to reach a place where I was comfortable and happy enough with myself to even try pole dancing. It reminds me of my wholeness. Reminds me that I am, indeed free. That I can do whatever I want to do. It reminds me that I am not just one thing or one person, but that I am many things, and all of those things are okay. I am limitless. It reminds me, when I forget, that I am strong.
And it teaches me. That there is always work to do. When I master one thing, it’s time to focus on another. It teaches me that this work is the beauty of the journey, so be patient. To do the work, but have fun and not judge myself. I can only be as good as where I am, and where I am tomorrow will not be where I am today.
So cheers, to new beginnings. May each of your new beginnings stand as a symbol of the layers you have shed.